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For the past 48 hours, a world of stress unloaded on me here. Thursday My leadership had told me to “stay flexible”… like I just planned to run to the court house real quick… no turkey heads, I have been planning this wedding for almost 12 months now and you’re telling me to be flexible? Come up with a back up plan? Holy-hell. I was informed Friday that I would not be able to go home on leave in time for my wedding on June 7^th… That day I was devastated. Cried for countless hours, and hit a real rock bottom low. Didn’t fall asleep till way late and was up all too early. The following morning I woke up and decided I was going to do what ever I could to get my wedding back. I sent a few emails, and started pushing buttons. Probably opened my mouth more than I should have about what was going on, griping to those who needed to know, those who could talk to the right people. And by 3pm, I was informed that they were able to find a slot for myself AND my better half to fly home in time for our wedding… pshew… Never have I been so relieved.  Now I need to get my rear in gear and go to the gym… Big sand storm hit today. Ick! Take care all!!

~K

So here we are, approaching the final 60 days prior to my wedding and boy oh boy are things getting exciting……………….and stressful………………….and interesting, to say the least. I think we (my mom, mostly) has everything under control, but I can’t help but get stressed out too. I’m still trying to find a balance between work, wedding planning, gym, studying, etc etc etc. Ouch, my head hurts.

I hope to be able to take a new hold of the phrase, “let go, let God.” But I can be such a dang control freak… ha! Oh, the joy of admitting it. I hadn’t been sleeping well for the past 2 ish weeks, so I took a week off from the gym and stuck just to going for a run after work to give myself more time to sleep. It seems to have gotten better and I think I will start at the gym again, tonight. I haven’t done a weigh in in a bit and I am nervous about that too…

Then the big stressor… Today I came to the realization that I might not make it home for my wedding… Depending on weather, days/flights available, etc, my wedding could be a challenge. I have been laughing off this theory for the past 6 months, and now suddenly it has hit me upside the back of the head. And it hurts… All I can do is hope everything lines up accordingly for me. But on a lighter note, I bought the book, Tuesdays with Morrie. WOW. I LOVED it. very interesting, thought provoking, and passionate book. Can’t stop thinking about how good it was. I strongly recommend it to all.Have a wonderful day, friends.~K